atika

2006-06-16T19:10:00.000+08:00

fairuz just had to make me do this test.. haiiz.. lol..oh well.. there u go..

3 names you go by:

** nurul, atika, tika

3 parts of your heritage:

** thai, javanese n chinese

3 of your everyday essentials:

** handphone, wallet n my watch

3 things you ware wearing now:

** OP shirt n blue shorts. n undergarments? lol

3 of your favourite bands or musical artiste at the moment:

** green day, simple plan n sandi thom

3 things you want in a relationship other than love:

** trust, being understanding and loads of humour

3 truths and 2 lies (in no particular order):

**truth: i love being sarcastic..=))

**truth: i am very bubbly and jovial

**truth: i hate being short and fat

**lie: im superbly good in books..

**lie: im tall n slim..lol

3 physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to u:

**hair

**smile

**LAZY EYES!!!

3 of your favourite hobbies:

**surf the net..

**blade

**hmm..cant i just have two?..lol

3 things you badly want right now:

**a new watch..

** a new hairstlye!!..plzzz

**my own dig. cam..

3 places you want to go on a vacation:

**vacation huh?..i wana go mecca but nt for vacation can?..lol

** perth!..i miss evryone there..very badly. really.

** gold coast..yay..i wanna go there again!!

3 things you want to try doing:

** study.

**study.

but apparently i cant la..boo hoo=((

3 people i wud like to see take this test:

** heira

**fazzie

**fizah

2006-06-15T21:09:00.000+08:00

omg omg.. i dun noe y this tyme ard i am so into singapore idol. i wasnt last tyme. i really wasnt. mayb coz paul is in and probably becoz of hady!.. lol.. paul is like superbly cute la. nobody can deny tat. like duh. he has style!!.. n he really sings good..oh well.. atleast i think so..=))..

so i was watchin the show on the 2nd group of guys. so i tot some can really sing. like seriously. so wen hady was introduced....
me: ahhh.so typical..
then so he sang.. since he was the first one up
me: omg!. woo, he can sing..
mom: and u underestimated him.
me: ma, i was referrin to typical in a good way..hehe..(tryin to take back my werds..hehe)
mom: he is quite good lookin
me: err..ma?.. good looking?..he looks quite stoned
n wen he looked into the camera while singing the chorus
me: ouh. wow. tats some shit..(tryin to slowly take back my werds..=D)
mom: told u hes good lookin
n alast he smiled afta the song,
i cudnt say anything else. i was meltin..awww.. hes smile is just HOT.n i MELTED.lol (ma, u're right.i lost.)

hahaha.. had to take back A LOT of my werds aye.. lol..i was really hopin he wud be in. i mean. if he isnt, tat wud be a talent wasted..tsk tsk..n yeayness!.. he is in!!!... hady..hmm.. he has potential.. n so does paul..=)).. ouh well..haiiz

2006-06-13T21:08:00.000+08:00

oh well..promised darlin FAZZIE that i wud update..haha.. been ages aye.. lol..

anihu..loads of things happenned..i was just sheer lazy to update.. but yeah..

went to the zoo on mon.. afta skewl.. like yeahh.ok.the onli reason i wana go on mon is because mahandran asked me to coz its been yonks since we met. i mean ok nt literally because of him but actualli yes.. lol..he said tat he'll be werking on mon n so i tot mon was just superb.. but at first fatin and fairuz had some stuff..so explained to him and all and bla bla bla..then these two musketeers said they had a change of plans and mon is fine wit them.. so wen we were alreadi at the zoo, i called mahandran onli knowing tat he is not werkin!.. dude, u are supoz to werk!!!..u cant just change ur daes, can u?..ok maybe last min but heyyyy..like.. dude, u are meant to be shot!..haha..lol..i SOOO wanted to mit him..i came all the way to mandai because of u ok..ok atleast partially because of u! like afta skewl u noe!! like wit my heavy management book u noe..hmph.. but yeahh.. it was still great..=)).. haha.. i still miss u dude..heex..=))

ok..so had quality tyme wit my darlins.. they were forever capturing pixes..alahai..photographer la konon.. haha..anihu.. met up wit siti,eken n auntie i-wonder. ahakz.. met rafiq AGAIN.. hek hek.. and a whole lot of other animal presenters.. but not sue-ann.. gosh i miss her.. like really.. the first ever girl hu said my name is beautiful.. lol.. on top of tt, shes really a sweetheart.. my abg rohan wasnt there also.. wth. for 2 trips that i went, he is not ard.. boo hoo.. ok that is the other guy that i miss.. at last we watched the elephant show. it was superb.. two thumbs up mate.. we got loads of stuff for free la..haha.. fatin, if we were to visit zoo everydae, w/o payin A LOT for the stuff, aku rase zoo bankrupt siakk.. but..hu cares.. :))

there u go.me n fairuz...=))

afta the whole zoo trip..had dinner wit ms eunice ong. did i ever mention that i lurve her?.. like really. she nvr gives up on us. nvr did she say we're some moronic creatures who nvr stops playin like OTHER teachers. nvr did she lost hope on us. she nvr did stop encouraging us. we really feel sorry that we have dissapointed her, we really do. we failed her subject. wat else cud make her feel utterly dissapointed. but not noein until yest,tat she was dissapointed in herself. she felt that she cud have done better for us. she cud have gone an extra mile just for us. endlessly, we told her that we gave up too easily on ourselves. n it was purely our fault. she has done her part but sadly, we didnt do ours. something she said just touched me, touched my soul. "as a teacher, i feel that i have failed to encourage u guys to the extent that u guys gave up on the subject".. tears was already forming up.. i cud see, that it was the same for hers.. no other teacher actualli ever said that to us. n most importantly, no other teacher has touched my heart so much like how she did.. she is already on no pay leave now.. she blames herself for everything. n i mean everything. even wen we fail our subjects. she wants to leave teaching wit a very memorable experience. wat she says really puts me into some deep thinkin. i nvr cud understand y. " i feel that, if many students fail my subject, it is my fault. n i feel that im crushing students future".. teachers are just meant to be respected. nvr did i appreciate them last time. but now. i do. i really do. i regret every single mistake that i have done. they have sacrificed for us, students a lot.. just w/o us knowin and realizin.. syafiq, maybe i was thinkin too much of this.. probably..

rozy, me, ms ong, fiz n syilah.durin grad..lol.i look fugly..

anihu, went out "studying" w/ fazzie.. was supoz to study but end up.... lol.. haha.. ok.. not studyin.. expected ryyte.. wahaha.. we were walking aimlessly at the airport.. ouh yes.. waiting for the flight from amsterdam, to see cute guys..n also the flight from perth n frankfurt. lol. haha.. shes crazy la..i mean..yeahh..haha.. had swensens ice cream n tralalala.. haha..

fazzie: look at this pic n the other one afta this..n compare..

see the diff wen u smile n wen u dun??..slenge!

ok fine. we are crazy can?

omg.. afta seein the photo during grad n the photos wit fazzie.. omg.. i've changed.. im darker!!!.. ahhhh!!!lol..

2006-06-05T21:19:00.000+08:00

havent u realize sometimes the only reason why people hate u is because of jealousy and also of greed?.. ouh yes.. some ppl wit brains who can think wud obviously say it is just bizzare.. but hey.. not everyone thinks that way aye.

sometimes its quite fascinating if u think about all the envious ppl ard u.. what they can actually do or think of u just because of, JEALOUSY.. sometimes what they see is just fame and popularity. the word humble was never in their dictionary. it is quite amazing to realize that there are these kinds who still exist..

sometimes, u have to just accept the fact that no one is perfect. no one is born to be able to do everything n i mean NO ONE. esp not U for tat matter. sometimes the only thing that causes ur world come crashing down is due to ur own cause,ur own doings. well probably u dont see it yet because im sure it is crumbling down slowly n i mean VERY SLOWLY.. ouh no worries, im sure it wont hurt u.. with ur HUGE ego im sure it wudnt harm u much. probably just a little. but hey u're smart aren't u?.. then, wen the tyme comes,wen u realize everything is crumbling down, all u have to do is to fight.. oh well.. not against me for that matter.well, if u're smart enuff u wud noe hu or shud i say what to fight against.. but heyy.. being a nice fren (oh i dun noe if u still call me a fren but wateva)..all u have to do is to fight against ur ego. n tats it.

this universe does not revolves around u. let me repeat myself. DOES NOT revolves around u. give a chance to the others.. they also want a say.. they have their own opinions. they have their own views. n wen u get a negative one, dun be a coward, u just have to accept it. like how i have always accepted ur comments. be it positive or negative. i accepted the fact that i aint good in a particular something..but can u?.. i accepted the fact that he aint cute.. but can u?.. i accepted the fact that im fat and short.. but can u?..i accepted the fact that i'm malay..but can u?.. look around u.. nothing is gona change just because of u..

2006-06-01T14:41:00.000+08:00

omg omg!!!!.. lalalala lalalala.. i cant imagine tat we went to the zoo!!!!!!!.. yeayness.. omg omg. im going crazy!!.. lalalala

so we went to the zoo on 31 may.. lalalala.. had like a GREAATT tyme.. haha.. went wit fiz, fazzie, cheryl, fifi, fareez, hendra n fahmi..=))

so fizah lurves the chimps..like wth?..haha.. well apparently she said its her species.. sooo.. yeahh.. that explains everything.. fazzie lurves the polars.. she wanted to sit at the polar area for like foreva?..haha.. yeahh.. the polar bears are amazing..=)).. hendra lurves the horse!!.. haha.. well.. he can imitate a horse..wahaha..quite fascinating aye.. ahakz. fahmi is all soo cudnt be bothered. fareez is like interested in every animal.. haha.. ouh yes. he lurves the thingy wer we can walk inside, its wer the animals are free..ahh ya.. haha.. i lurve the errm the errm 3 day old newborn pony!!.. yes yes!!!.. haiiz.. sooo cuutee!!.. ah yes..

so most of the stuff in the zoo has change or is changing.. yeah.. now there is such thing as the free ranging orang utans.. pretty cool la.. ouh yes.. all the photography now is wireless!!.. freako!!.. we faced LOADS of probs last tyme like during CNY. we had to run ard and all. n now its wireless?..dammit.. liike wat fareez says.."dont u wish u're still werking?".. hell yeahh.. i miss those daes..

bt then again.. there are still those stuff which did not change.. haha.. like.. the show times and all.. haha.. the pony rides n horse carriage rides..haha.. ouh yes.. we were given free horse carriage rides.. hahaha.. how did it start?.. ehem ehem..
me: sarip!!..
sarip: eyy..kau kat sini..
me: ngantuk pe?.. mata dah nk tertutup jek
sarip: abeh tk de org nk naik..
me: ahh..baik ar.. aku naik free ar amcm?..nnti kau tertdo klau tk de org naik
sarip: boleh boleh..naik ar.. max org is 6
me: eyy..girls..anybody wana take the horse carriage?
girls: how much??
me: errmm..free?..
girl: serious??..oryytee..

haha.. so went one round and all.. sad that the guys cant join us.. haha.. yeahh.. so went looking at the animals.. sarip told us that there is a newborn pony.. so went to check it out and all.. met hanafi n shanker but they didnt recognize me. so yes.. met yan.. chatted and all.. bla bla bla.. ouh yes she said tat im getting very dark..boo hoo..=((.. ouh fizah really wanted to see rafiq n rohan.. coz me n fatin have been talking about them a lot.. and afterall she wanted to hear rafiq's laughter.. hek hek.. yeah asked yan hu was werkin but she didnt mention rafiq.. so we were like "dissapointed"..

so all of us headed to the children's werld to eat.. we were damn hungry.. then suddenly.. theres a buggy.. ahahahaha

cheryl: move to the side.. got vehicle
*so saw the buggy n all.. the it actually stoped like beside us
rafiq: eeeeyyyy
me:omg..eyy hie
mat nuh: eh..mcm penah nmpk..
rafiq: eyy..KFC mane?..
me: allah.. u lupekn saje la..
*buggy drives off..still can hear them(rafiq n mat nuh) luffing..
me: omg omg
fizah: well..tat is rafiq ryte?
me: hahahahaha..{ok i literally burst out laughing}
fizah: he doesnt look malay..
me: errm.. yeah.. hahahaha..{still laughin}
me: ouh yes. n the other one is mat nuh. the guy yg fatin suke..
fizah: ouuuhhh..

hahaha.. tat was superbly funny ok.. like..wth?.. we didnt expect him to be werkin.. n ya.. haha
.. me n fizah were like laughing n all.. haha.. both of us are the only one luffing la.. freako. i mean ok shes the only one hu noes my dirty lil secret about rafiq.besides his laughter.. hahaha..

ok wateva. then cheryl was going bizzare over the swing.. haha.. she was socializing wit those 2-4 yrs old..haha.. playing wit them n all.. aww how sweet.=)).. haha.. she was soooo reluctant to leave.. omg.. even after eatin, she went to the pool with harfia.. like.. omg.. haha.. but yea.. once we're out of children's werld, we tot it wud all be over. bt no.. she still insist on gg all the way back for her swing.. hahaha.. ouh n yes.. she sat on the elephant wit hendra after much persuading.. hahaha..sooo sweeet..=))..

ahh.. i lurve the zoo.. haha.. but.. yest was damn hot la.. like omg.. but ya.luckily it wasnt raining.. phew..ok ok.. so yes.. we were enjoying staff discounts and all..wahaha.. ok im sikk.. met like LOADS of ppl.. haha.. auntie says im getting dark..=((.. lyna n ka yin says im very dark..=((.. i feel like cryin. boo hoo.. hahahaha..jon says im gettin dark..=((.. ok ok.. so chatted a bit wit jon, jack,sarip, rafiq, mat nuh, the tram driver, aunty, lyna, kayin,naz n yan..yipeee.. saw taufiq the gr, hanafi, shanker n the other zoo ppl..yipee..ok ok..wateva..

ouh yes.. rafiq dah halalkan the KFC!!..yipee!!.. hahaha.. like i said there are stuff that didnt change.. haha.. rafiq is still botak!!.. omg la.. hahaha.. we were expecting hair!!..haha.. bla bla bla..rafiq was like all over the zoo.. haha.. saw him like a billion tymes.. ouh yest was the first tyme i call jamal, fatin's abg sdr, abg...hahaha.. weird!!.. ouh yes.. i stupidly didnt bring the clip cans..=((.. my abg rohan wasnt there.. haha.. he wasnt werkin.. rohan is like the ONLY guy tat i usually call abg.. n we address oursleves as abg n adik.. weird.. haha.. yeahh.. but ya.. lyna n eken says that i really look like rohan's younger sis.. yeahh wateva.. haha.

ok ok..took LOADS of pixes..=))..

me and fifi..at the bus stop

me and fazzie..on the horse carriage.. n yes.. thats sarip's back.haha

the hyper me and the frownin hendra..wahaha

the superbly tired us..

hendra n me..=))..

wit fahmi..

me, rosmah n fifi..=)))

me, fazzie n fifi..=)))

the macho guys?..uh huh

yeapp..all 8 of us.. errm.. it is meant to be blur..wahaha

wee..yeapp..=))

math was superb.. rosmah and fizah noes y..=))

2006-05-29T11:02:00.000+08:00

i miss his very unique way of saying the timing.. awww.. lalalala.. its funny how a piece of uniform can actualli change a person's impression.. haha.. *winkwink*. like after months of noein him wen he is in his uniform then..... lalalala.. i shall shut up.. wahaha..

hah. had to march at home team academy on sat.. yeah.. it was superbly hot ok.. omg.. so yes.. MI girls and SA guys represent the JC/CI.. there was some ITE peeps, poly students n ya.. so.. they thought some stuff there and all.. wen we marched out of the parade square it was soooo berterabuh.. BUT.. wen we were marching for the formation or wteva u call it.. it was superb!!.. woo!!.. lalalala..

ouh yes.. we saw an officer, a caucasion officer who looks like saddad.. omg!!.. haha.. so yes. we called him saddod.. haha.. but yea.. turned out that his name is steward something.. lalalala.. woo..

anihow.. im in a dilemma.. shit la.. im supoz to go for this debate workshop so that i can pick up skills to debate in jcdc. where i wud represent MI. but that is if im good enuff. exactly y im supoz to go for that workshop.. BUT.. i got 8 free tix to the zoo.. n i gave it all to my frens la..duh.. u noe how i miss the zoo.. n i really really wana go to the zoo wit them.. i wana go to both the zoo and the debateworkshop.. ahh.. i dun noe la..

ouh yes.. u noe that rahimah rahim in sg idol.. yeah.. she was my mendaki fren.. OMG.. wats wit that hair??.. but yea.. haha.. she is sooo different.. i mean.. she was all so sporty and all.. very nice n helpful.. yeahh..

anihu.. shukri.. can u plz try to zip ur mouth.. i noe its difficult for u.. but plz.. haha.. serious serious.. i'll probably die if u tell anyone.. n i mean anyone.. shut up la shuk plzzz.. haha.. i noe i shudnt have told u.. haha.. but still.. haha.. now that i have told.. u better shut up!!.. n dun try to hit me back slenge.. ahhh... n stop ur silly face wink.. freako!!.. shukri.. woo.. i actualli do noe ur dirty lil secret ryte?.. haha.. eventho u claim otherwise, i still cud tell wat happened.. shuk.. PLZZZZ..

shuk noes my dirty lil secret..freako.. ahhhh..

2006-05-26T21:53:00.000+08:00

lalalala.. been ages since i've updated huh.. and have been very lazy to update.. lalalala..

CARNIVAL, 20 may 2006

more to like a reunion
met olivia, rou2, heira, mat nuh, joyce
showed ira my eye-candy..=))
ira oogling at hot guys..its a norm..
ouh yes.. syafiq rahmad and two of his fwens came to join us..
waited for the haunted house.wee
and a hell of a tyme in that haunted house..
freakily freaky. bumped into one of syafiq rahmad's fwen coz its really gelap and partially coz the ghost was following us..
shouted like nobody's biz..and yeayness..my voice serak liao..

BIG WALK, 21 may 2006

went wit the skewl.. met everyone at JE at 6.45
walked wit fifi, fizah, fazzie, firah,cheryl, PM and fareez
crapped together.. lalalala
met syaffiq, afiq and nazri..
had ice cream..=))
finished off at the esplanade..
crapped.. took loads of pictures..
went and have lunch at seoul grden at marina square..=))
spent almost 3 hours there..
as usual..crapped..made loads of noise.. took loads of pixes..

me and cheryl..=))

me and fareez

me and firah..=))

me and fifi..=)).. its blurred..

everyone..

fazzie is not in..=((

there u go..us..

tsk tsk.cheryl, who is the father?.. peterpan huh?

everyone that u nid to noe..=))

DEBATE FINALS

06C1 WON!!!!!!!!!!!
yeaynesss!!!!!!
got two throphies!!!
yeayness!!
heart 06c1!!!
a very cute moment!!
06c1 is the CHAMPION!!
n we're lovin it baby..

2006-05-18T18:32:00.000+08:00

i realized that i actualli lost interest in my eye candy.. i dun noe why.. maybe its just tat i am sick of falling for anyone anymore.. i have no more confidence at all.. it has just been drained out from my body.. its better not to even try than to get frustrated in the attempt.. ahh.. some mite say that i wud need a diversion to forget him.. but the real fact is that i cant ok.. i admit it.. i cant.. furthermore, i wudnt wana forget him just bcoz of another eye-candy.. thats bullshit.. if i continue doin tat way just to forget him, trust me. it will nvr werk.. how cud it possibly werk if his past ignorance didnt werk at all.. ok atleast it did for a period of tyme. but still.. it came back didnt it?..how cud i possibly think tat this diversion wud make those feelings fade away completely and it will nvr come back? i wud loike to forget him totally. i want those DAMN FEELINGS to FADE away COMPLETELY. is it that difficult?.. y must it come back?.. y him again??.. y am i alwaes in this situtation? y didnt i fight for wat i want?.. y do i just step back as tho nth happened and let emotions come crashing down on me? y do i still want something that obviously is un-reachable? y am i tearing?.. i dun even noe wat i want..

i cant bear seein u in this complicated situation, probably thats y i stepped back.. maybe i just dont show my true feelings.. i just dont.. i cant.. i cant show how much i needed u coz u are my bestfriend..i cant show how much i loved u more than wat u tot coz u are my bestfriend.. i cant show loads of things to u coz u are my bestfriend.. i just cant.. there was a boundary. and i kept all those extras to myslef.. but somehow.. u guessed it.. i noe.. its down to two now.. i dun wana add it up to three again..i cant bear competitions even if it means dissapointments.. i'd rather put up a happy face infront of everyone and act as tho nth happened.. but it'd be difficult around u, noein that u noe me too well.. noein tat u can read my mind..

okay.. let me wash up my face first.. so yeah.. had drama SYF just now. it was great.. amelia mispronounced a word..and thats it..=)).. some ministers came and commented.. they simply loved joel and aaron.. wow wee.. i was being a very sporty housewife.. haha.. hilarious!!.. amelia was fantastic!!!... dave was so good.. and mother actualli was very very angry and gave amelia one tight slap..that made me go " ouch..shit tat was good".. ahakz.. so yes.. all the cast members had to wear some stage make up.. lalalala... first one to have make up was dave.. and wen i saw him i went like " shit la.. is that chines opera make-up or wat".. but it does make wonders to ur face.. haha.. i was sooo reluctant to have tat make up on la.. aiyo.. but yea.. that guy claim tat it wud look good on stage after all the lightings and all. bllaaaahhh.. so yes.. wateva it is.. we just have to wait for the results..

gez im done for this entry..

2006-05-11T23:31:00.000+08:00

my sis gave me a very welcoming note yest.. hah.. i soo appreciate her for tat.. thanx ar fifa.. thanx eh.. i sooo luv ya.. hah..
me: assalamualaikum..
afifa: omg!!..kak..why u SO hitam??..ouh ya.. waalaikumsalam..
urgh!!.. i just needed that after a whole tiring day.. lurvin ya alwaes ar fifa..

i miss the zoo.. seriously..been planning to go to the zoo but something more impt alwaes destroys our plan.. hmph.. yeah..

the list of zoo ppl i miss:
-fatin

- siti
-yvonne
-william

-sue-ann
-zahirah

-rohan

-rafiq

-vid
- naz

-jon
-jack
-fred
-hanafi
-vincent
-the fnb guy
-mahandran
-the cute GR
-uncle bashir

the list of animals i miss:
-anita and baby atina (orang utan)
-meerie and baby merlin (orang utan)
-comel(orang utan)
-satria (orang utan)
-ah meng (orang utan)
-tanjerine (snake)
-tri-spot (snake)
-stanley (horse)
-gambir and jati (elephants)
-the otter
-the ponys

the list of things i do in the zoo that i miss:
-taking photos of tourists/visitors
-sayin "camera mitek".( look at the camera in jap)
-sayin " the childrens world is straight up this route"..
-sayin "im sorry but we only limit our pony rides to 20 per session"
-sayin " pony rides starts at 11 am and 4 pm"
-sayin "the elephant ride wud be at 1 and we start sellin the tix 5 min before the rides"
-taking our photos
-crappin wit the animal presenters,zoo keepers and booth girls
-sleeping for four hours durin werk
-doin crosswords puzzle durin werk
-running to and fro..from the booth to the elephant ride area
-walkin ard the zoo during our free tyme..oops

siti and yvonne has brought sweet memories in the booth itself..=)).. siti was such a darl.. alwaes wit a smile.. veryy crappy indeed.. luvin her.. she rawks!!.. yvonne.. me and fatin can nvr forget her.. wit the "i wonder".. hah.. brings great laughter wenever we're bored..

sue-ann.. luving her too.. for goodness sake, she loves my name!!!the only girl who loves my name.. haha.. sheer sweetness.. shes totally sweet..soft spoken?..hmmm..haha.. nvr regreted noein her..

naz..the girl who noes all the language..phew.. english, chinese, tamil, malay, french, japanese....
2 werds.. WOW WEE!!!..

rohan and rafiq.. the 2 irritating guys.. i still owe them KFC..haha.. out of this stupid joke tat we bet on.. rafiq and his sarcasms..omg.. worse than mine!!..
wen i came back to werk durin hols he went like "ish..aleh2 terasa nk mkn kfc".. during lunch.. i was in between rafiq and this GR.. and suddenly both started talkin..
GR: ayam tepung nie lag sedap dari ayam yg biasa..
rafiq: sedap mmg sedap tapi KFC lagi sedap..
rohan is just a hilarious guy..usually durin breakfast photo session.. he'll be at the O.U mount and i'll be wit magaret or the other presenters at the snake mount..
rohan: how many times stronger do u think the orang utan is compared to me?
visitors: 12..15..
rohan: mam, i go to the gym twice a week..
magaret: aiya rohan, dun say u go gym twice a week la.. ppl will luff at u
me: huh?.. but y?
magaret: u shud see him half-naked.. a lot of fats!!!..
i'll be dead if he finds out..hahaha...funny bunch of ppl arent they.. missing them loads.. missin taking pix wit fatin also.. haiiz..

she was lookin at someone.. haiiz.. ade hikmah sebalik hikmat tau fatin.. hahaha..

we were bored as usual..if not takin pix..we'll be sleepin.. or doin crosswerd puzzles..=))

i dont noe wat happened to our smiles.. haha..

and yes.. here we are again.. haha

ouh yes.. had sports day today..=)).. onyx are the champs.. i wasnt even supportin my sapphire.. haha.. was at the zircon house.. ate and crapped.. painted our arms..=)).. chatted.. lookin out for the gorgeous guy from bartley..haha.. onyx's cheerleadin team was superb!!.. they were brilliant.. very uniform and wow wee..haha.. sapphire's cheerleading came in second..bleah.. zircon's cheer was sooooo berterabuh.. garnet's was so MCS-ish..urgh.. ouh yes.. my eye candy was in zircon!!!.. and amal was being such an ass.. seriously.. urgh!!.. he cud easily pass the yellow paint to me.. but then..he gave it to him to pass it to me.. no sense amal.. u got no point..

as u can see..our names.. except alyssa's tho.. her nick:ali.. how cute..=))

first fazzie is shock.......

then fazzie is all so expression-less.. not even smilin properly..heex

me and firah..

so yes..thats it.. phew.. now.. homewerks!!!.. wee.. here i come.. i soo lurve doin homewerks.. debate is coming!!..ahhh!!!

2006-05-06T12:06:00.000+08:00

havent u realize we alwaes want somethings that is very impossible to get. we somehow just cant love someone who is in love wit u instead we alwaes love someone who u noe will nvr love u. its weird how this theory comes along. but it is so true.

jangan ditunggu.

pasti takkan berlaku..

walau kucinta kamu

biar disimpan

adakan sempadan..

aku dan juga dirimu

i just noe it will nvr happen and therefore it is just easier for me to step back rather than making a hooha about it. i'd rather lighten u're burden and ur complications. cant bear seeing u all so confused with the other girls.. i mite as well be a darl and stand by u as a bestfren.. eventho i love u, i'd rather just keep those feelings to myself (obviously i didnt bcoz some smartass just had to read my mind). im sure u wudnt noe wat is sempadan.. heex.. go ask khair or go find it in a kamus..=))

u say it seems easy for me to just forget u and to just step back as if nth has happenned..
but do u really think it is for me?.. do u really think it was so easy just to have those feeling fade away?.. ahh..nvm..

anihu.. bout the debate.. we alwaes thought timothy from 06s1 was all so good and all..but nah.. we're better.. ahakz.. and so the motion was "risking human lives for greter scientifiv knowledge is unethical" 06s1 was the propsition team while 06c1 was the opposition team. when we got the details about the motion and all we were like "wth!!..we need very very very strong points".. and so we decided to join forces with 06s3 and 06a1.. but 06a1 didnt make it.. so we wanted to share points with 06s3..

before that..did a lil preparation..mdm lee gave some concrete points about the medical aspects.. syafiq gave A LOT of points on discoveries.. ps. did u memorize the encyclopedia when u were small?.. sheesh..u're smart.. and so.. met up on sun to do up all the debate stuff.. i was the third speaker and so is amal. so we were werking together for the debate. turned out both of us has the same speech.. haha.. it was quite alryte since we're in two diff rooms.. so yeap.. saifuddin had the same speech as massha and ili had the same speech ans MJ.. haha.. hilarious!..

and so.. the day finally came.. at first we were all very nervous.. ppl kept commenting on 06s1.. comenting on how brilliant they were.. how they keep "membeliting" their werd to make their opponent confuse..

we didnt even tot of winning.. seriously.. ili wanted to step back. she just had to.. she was soo confident we wud not win and all.. but i mean.. we have to at least try ryte?.. and soo.. during the debate.. FAZZIE (she wants her name to be big), firah and nadiah was encouraging us by scribbling down on the small blackboard.. how cute.. thanks darlings.. they kept talking about cloning and nth else.. like omg.. we didnt even noe wat to rebutt.. and that felix and daliah from the audience were asking loads of unrelated-to-the-motion questings.. like wtf?..

i kept thinking we were all b dead.. we surely wont win.. like i mean how?.. we didnt even rebutt.. and the propo team said we were out of point and crap.. i didnt had the confidence to even convince myself that we will win.. ili and massha was begging me to take back my werds and all.. but heck.. tat was wat i really felt.. not winning the debate..

the chairman atlast stood up and told us the results..
best speaker -nurul atika..
winner- 0....06...06c1!!!!!
like omg.. me the best speaker?.. like wth?.. ili was quite dissapointed.. she wanted to b the best speaker.. but yea.. ili..the finals aiite.. better be the best speaker..=)).. and we won!! like omg.. we won!!.. wow.. how cud we win a debate that we NVR tot of winning.. fascinating aye..

so we're in the finals!! 06c1 vs 06s3.. like omg!!.. we were discussing and we had totally same speech and now we're gona mit for the fianls??.. arghh.. but ya.. 16 may.. LT1.. 4.00 pm.. imfront of all year 1.. damn..im sooo gona be nervous..

anihu.. omg.. saifuddin actualli remembers me.. wow wee.. so touched.. haha.. he even remembered that he asked me to write in his diary.. one nice thing that he ever said to me..
"u're very difficult to be forgotten"..aww.. heex..

and.. i got to noe.. ppl do read my blog.. wee.. luv u guys.. luv u FAZZIE (she wanted it big ryte)..
sayyanng ili.. and the other peeps.. luv u fiz.. thanx for being there for me all this while.. most honoured to have u as my best fwen.. luv ya to pieces.. muaxx..

ps. had to tell the whole world about how u were searching for me la.. that shows u care for me.=)).. aint it a good thing?.. it left a great impression..heex

2006-05-01T00:37:00.000+08:00

it is wrong to actualli fall for the same guy twice
it is even wrong to fall for a freakin bestfriend
it was a very wrong move to even fall for u

ppl say feelings cant be helped. u sae its not my fault.everyone sae feelings just come.

cant u see it?.. it is my fault.. if i had put the barrier.. shit wont happen again.. feelings wont come again.. but i made a mistake.. somehow i just forgot totally about it.. n now u sae its not my fault?.. bullshit. if i had just put tat barrier, things wudnt be too complicated as it is already for u. it wud probably stick to 2 instead of 3.

wudnt it be better if i give myself an ans?

it is just a better thing to do to giv myself an ans. it wud somehow help me to fade the feelings away faster. and things wud hopefully get back to normal.. somehow i just let it happened again for the second time. history wasnt meant to be repeated. but it just did. due to some stupid mistakes.

wat if i can step back?..

give me time to collect all the feelings back and to actualli put the barrier for once. i can do tat. and my feelings wud fade, it wud. i promise u it wud.. i'd rather have it fade away than to let shit happen to our friendship.. its just weird tat u're nt telling me bout the other girls.. heex.. and i wont get hurt for goodness sake..i'm ur bestfriend, so..u better tell me..haha..

have faith in me. tats all i ask for. it wud go away. somehow or another, if i like it or not. i dont have a choice.. i have to let it fade away rather than to keep it hanging. so yes.

2006-04-29T17:32:00.000+08:00

first and foremost, fifi if u're reading this. that part of my last entry wasnt meant to be understood.. haha

sometimes things are just not meant to be said neither it is meant to be understood.. but thats just how life goes no matter how much u like it anot.. sometimes u shud just let it go.. no matter how much u realli wanna noe.. sometimes things are better off unsaid.. but noeing ourselves.. it is just impossible to just leave it as it is..

funny how some things happen without u noeing.. it seems scary how things happen in just a nick of time.. sometimes u just cant let those things slip away becoz somehow or another u noe wat is gona happen next.. or shud i say the consequences tat are gona happen.. tryin so hard just to keep those things to urself.. holding back everything so tightly to urself.. so afraid if u carelessly slip it off ur hands..

still, it seems creepy no matter how hard u try, or even after promising urself..or even after holdin it back so tightly, things just slip away.carelessly.. u make a wrong move and there u go.. the balloon is burst..everything comes down crashin..all the things which are not meant to be told has been told.. all the things that are not meant to said has been said.. all the things which are not meant to be understood has been understood..

ppl alwaes say things happen for a reason.. y must the reason be all so complicated?.. why is it so difficult to find the reason?.. some wud say u'll nvr noe if u try.. but still, in my case.. i've been there, done tat. most afraid if it wud happen once again..but it did as u predicted it.. u ask me qns that i cant even answer myself.. thats how mysterious my life can be..

anihu.. thanx ar fiz thanx eh..u just had to sing that indon song ryte.. omg.. just had to remind me of kecik, mayat n handsome.. just had to siak.. and i noe the other song they keep singing.. its by dewa- sedang ingin bercinta... the song is quite nice and short..now tell me how can i stop singing indon songs when fiz keps singing them.. haiz.. buts its quite nice la..=)).. haha.. trying to switch my likings from reggae to indon songs huh?.. u and the other 3 guys can be bombed in the same toilet!!..haha..

2006-04-26T18:49:00.000+08:00

hah.. loads of great things happened the past few daes..ok not really.. some unexpected stuff happened..some great things happened.. some sweet stuff happened..=))

25 april 2006
wee..loads of GREAT stuff happened la..=))..

first.. i talked to my eye candy. goodness.. i didnt had the guts to even talk to him la.. but still.. cheryl came to the rescue.. fiz and fazzie gave a simple task.. to talk to him (asking him for the tabs of coz) and they give me the money they promised.. omg.. intially i didnt dare to do it all..omg.. i mean how cud i??.. i was hesitating and all.. hendra and fahmi was like " gi lah mintak budak "cute"{fahmi wanted to call him gemuk but i force him to say call him cute..haha} tu".. haha.. but still,i didnt want to.. suddenly cheryl went to the whole lot of guys askin for the tabs.. wen they asked wat its for, cheryl didnt even noe wat to explain and therefore, pulled me in.. and so.. i was next to him {like OMG!!!} helping him removing those tabs.. omg.. super duper cute.. i noe ili, faz and firah wud be like "eeew no".. haha.. k la.. ugly but adorable..=))..

had debate.. motion: "money rules the lives of teenagers".. we're proposition.. haha.. and omg omg.. WE WON!!! 06C1 WON!!!.. we defeated 06s2!!. i cant imagine tat.. they were soooo unprepared la.. goodness.. quite sad la.. coz they only noe bout the debate that morning.. how pathetic can their teacher be..tsk tsk. but still, we won!!.. me being the third speaker didnt even have to finish up my points. goodness.. wat is this.. but wat to do.. had to rebutt (is tat how u spell it?? haha) a lot and yea.. but still the most impt points were all conveyed..=)).. haha.. PM was being a SUPERB reply speaker.. omg ..

the oppo team was like : "are u trying to say that transportation fee is a crime??.."
we said : "we are not trying to say that transportation fee is a crime, we are saying that, that is the minimum expense that a teenager would have to spend!"
the oppo team said : "why must teenagers have hp?.. like my friend here, he does not have a phone".
we said : " fine, if u go out to meet ur friends and u dun noe where they are thus u nid to call them. wat do use?.. a payphone..and there goes ur 10 cents.. or even if u are at some shopping centres and u wana go to toilet. another 10 cents gone..
the oppo team : "every person have the desire to have things..hp, mp3 bla bla bla.. but they are only desires..they dun have to buy them"
we said: fine..what about the desire to have money?

omg omg!!!.. i love 06c1!!!!... haha.. the debate was freaking kewl la..=))..06c2 rawks too!!!..in MI we practice "healthy competition".. bluek.. that is wat they emphasize everytime a have a comepetition.. urgh.. anihu.. our judge was my mr charming, fizah's my romantic, fazlinn's mr u-smell-soo-good, firah's and nadiah's mr-omg-u-gave-me-a-book!!! omg omg.. he remembered my name!! goodness..i mean hes like my drama teacher la.. and its still not fair that fazlinn got to sit beside him since she was the time-keeper..hmph!!..

u wud not imagine this.. omg!!.. fizah tot i went missing afta Gp lecture.. i mean..wth?.. haha.. afta Gp.. fiz and nad were like in this super duper crowded toilet and noein me.. i cudnt be bothered to wait.. afterall fiz said if i wanted to go canteen i cud go ahead coz she doesnt want to.. so fine. i went up class first noein that she probably thinks i went to the canteen.. so yes.. i was in class reading up my debate thing and all.. and tada hendra came and crapped wit me and shit helped me wit the debate..everything went as per norm.. then suddenly, fiz came into the class panting..

hendra: the devil has arrived!!
fiz: omg!! u are here..
me: {me n hendra were like super blur} uh ya im here..
fiz: i tot u were lost!!
me: me lost in this pathetic skewl?? {hendra laughing out loud}
fiz: how shud i noe.u suddenly disappeared..
hendra: aww how sweet can the devil be
me: aww.. how nice fizah
fiz: pantat la..i literally searched for u around the skewl ok..

hahaha..i cant stop laughing la.. shes like super sweet la.. haha.. i mean how can i get lost in that skewl.. darlin..u ok not?.. haha.. but stil..shes concern about me aye... aww.. how sweet.. luv ya fiz..=)).. and u wudnt believe tis.. afta skewl, afta we met syafiq rahmad.. fiz wudnt let me walk behind her at all.. syafiq rahmad said she probably is scared if i get lost.. haha.. funny but sweet la u fiz.. haha..

and yes.. fizah.. he said hi to me!!!..wahahaha..

26 april 2006
was late for skewl again.. for the second tyme!!.. goodness.. fiz. u cannot afford to be late again.. im serious!!! but still..fazzie was all being super irritatin and crappy even tho we are in deep shit..haha.. but still..

pe was a torture today.. i mean seriously.. warm up: 4 rounds ard the court {perimeter of 2 basketball court and 1 tenis court}.. then did the normal stuff.. ran another 2 rounds.. how sikk aye.. then had that stupid curcuit.. had to ran one round till u met those steps and do the frog jump..freak!!..i hate that.. then the second set was to run obviously, 15 push ups, run then the frog jump again then done.. we are dismissed!!.. goodness.. seriously for every PE lesson wat i look forward is to bathe afta PE.. omg.. thats like the best la.. omg.. super lethargic siakk..

had drama again.. wee. had to do the speedometer.. like the diameter of the circle would be 1.5m.. and we nid 6 of them..omg..but compliments from mr charming that it was super nice and beautiful..=))..some did touch ups for the canvas.. n they did the glittering.. watched the cast rehearse and all.. dismissed at 6.. met syafiq rahmad again and bullied fiz again.. wow!..i sooo love having diplomatic ties.. haha..

and thats all for today..

ps. sometimes i realli dun get u.. i wud rather give myself an ans rather than to get hurt la.. ahh.. i dun noe.. sowie for disappointing in u as u got to noe that u're not one in a trillion.. haha.. and..plz dun kill me wen u see my gula2 mata if u think he is not a va-va-voom as i had described him..hehe

Some things are better left unsaid..

2006-04-23T16:16:00.000+08:00

fazzie has been such a darl lately.. somehow shes been listening to some of my complicated probs..n giving me wonderful advices..but still,its sad that im not following it huh.. it was nice to eventually mingle ard in class.. if not its alwaes the two of us.. obviously me n fiz.. like wat ili said, we just cant be separated..

omg..i cant imagine mena actualli believed us wen we told her we were sisters.. haha.. her first impression of me n fiz: sisters.. hah.. we cudnt help but to just play along wit the "lie".. haha.. i explained that both of us had different fathers but one mother.. n so that actualli "explains" the diff father names in our ic.. she was all so impressed on how close we could actualli be.. farah actualli said we somehow looked alike..haha.. at last we broke it down to them and they were cursing and all.. haha.. me and fizah could only laugh n laugh n obviously laugh..

went to kL, during the short hols.. went to visit syafiq my cuzzie n his mom.. hah..i got a shock of my lifetime wen i beri salam and opened the door ..i mean WTH??.. suddenly u see three guys in front of u just wearing their boxers and slacking at the living room.. i quickly went out "hiding" behind the door..i was like "err.im sooo sorry, syafiq ade?".. that was just so hilarious n embarassing..n the three guys actualli introduced themselves to my parents and all.. chatted.. i did nth but to just watch my bro play some stupid x-box game wen they were talkin.. so the three guys are izat aka mayat..they call him that coz he cud nvr wake up wen hes in deep sleep.. another izat aka bulat obviously coz his gempal..and another syafiq aka handsome.. well apparently he is cute.. but taken..hahaha.. n my cuzzie syafiq is aka kecik coz he is super duper small in size..haha.. funny how they come out wit names..haha..

"handsome", "mayat", "kecik" n me went out in the early morn, 12+ am.. hah.. my dad trusted my cuzzy a lot that he allowed me to go.wow!..fascinatin.. anihu.. went around KL and all.. passed by their "red light" district..hah.. they were disturbing almost everyone they saw..(literally shouting from inside the car) goodness.. so malaysia-ish.. hah.. saw this two hiphop niggas and all..n they were like "yo wasup bro?..".. all i had to do was to cover my face and and just laugh.. it was so embarassing.. went to this coffeshop to slack,play cars,sisha and talk.. haha.. yes..my second tyme for that sisha thing..haha..

mayat was being all so bluek-ish..haha.. he was so lame and crappy la.. yeah. we chatted and yes.. saw his "seriousness" n "caring" side of him..haha.. weird but true.. wen were playing cards.. its colek in malay..haha.. where u can change the "bunga" using the ace card.. yea..wateva that game is called in english.. haha.errm ya.. so he wanted to change from spades to hearts.. n the nex person was me.. he was like "i want love.. err, tak megharapkan ar tap kalau nk kasi".. i was like clueless.. my cuzzie was like "dream on la mayat".. haha..crapness sakk they all..

anihu..omg!!!!!!... i cant believe syafiq my cuzzie is attracted to fatin n so is fatin.. omg.. eeewww

there are many things that i would like to say to u, but i dun noe how.. that is soooo for me.. anihu.. havent u realize that it suck wen u noe the consequences of ur doings. and somehow u badly want the truth to be told, but due to the consequences that might happen u nvr dare to open ur mouth.. its like ur lips are just super tight.. hah

ps. like i said, some things are better left unsaid.. somehow, i do noe what is gona happen.. its not that i dun wana tell u, its just that i cant.. its not being secretive or wateva.. some ppl just cant tell because of a reason.. and i have a reason.. i gez i hv many more.. yes i noe u do wana noe wats happening and all.. but the consequences tat will happen is just unbearable.. somehow inside me someone is just askin me not to say it out.. its not i dont have the guts to say it.. after stuff that u've told me and crap, somehow it gives me a signal to nvr tell u this.. its useless to tell u.. trust me, it is.. plz dont read my mind.. theres no use.. if the tyme will nvr be ryte to tell u, i'll probably keep it until the end of the werld like u suggested..

2006-04-23T14:48:00.000+08:00

phew~..

omg..only god noes how tiring it was for me to actulli get this blog done.. it took me sooo long.. n i literally mean so long.. gosh.. if not for all the people who have somehow somewhat contributed some effort into making this blog successful..unlike my other blogs..lol.. fizah for telling what to do n how to do n where to go..
fazzie, for doing up my tag board..=)).. so yes.. at last i got a blog.. fine go on n tell me tat i'm slow or wateva. . like i said, at least i got a blog..

anihu..being stage crew is actualli fun.. i mean not considering how tiring it is.. but still.. its super duper fun..=)).. its us who are the most important ppl in the drama.. i mean think about it.. if not for the sound crew.. there wont be music at the right tyme..it will be haywire.. if not for me and other peeps who are doing the sets.. there wont be any props to make the drama look good..lol.. now get the point y we are the impt ppl?.. haha..ouh yeah.was talking about fun.. we had to actualli spray black on to the sofa set and gold for the lines of the road on this super huge n heavy black canvas.. we had gold hands at the end of the day..=)).. n we took hours to actualli get that gold spray off.. but still it was worthwhile.. that set looks superbly beautiful now.. hah..

and yes..got all over excited wen i saw my eye candy just now.. OMG!! .. he is like super duper cute la.. no matter wat other ppl say eg ili or fazzie..bluek.. i dun care.. he'll still be my eye candy.. wahaha.. yeah.. he had his cca just now..i seriously hope he wont noe anything.. i mean i dun wana live like how i lived in hillgrove.. wit u-noe-hu noein tat i like him and all.. gosh.. thats sikk..n i had to live wit it for 3 freakin years.. gosh.. but luckily i managed to actualli survived..wee..haha...

i made up my mind..i aint gona even spill anything..its just useless..sowie fizah..

lalalala..i cant imagine i got a blog.. im not supoz to have one..omg..haha.lol..